Diamanda Galas – Si la muerte

 Album: Malediction & Prayer
 Si la muerte
 Si la muerte viene y pregunta por mí
Haga el favor
De decirle que vuelva mañana
Que todavía no han cancelado mis deudas
Ni her terminado un poema
Ni he ordenado mi ropa para el viaje
Ni he llevado a su destino el encargo ajeno
 Ni he echado llave en mis gavetas
 Ni he dicho lo que debía decir a los amigos
Ni he sentido el olor de la rosa
Que no ha nacido
Ni he desenterrado mis raíces
Ni he escrito una carta pendiente
Que ni siquiera me he lavado las manos
Ni he conocido un hijo
Ni he emprendido caminatas en paises desconocidos
Ni conozco los siete velos del mar (Ni la canción del marino)
 Si la muerte vieniera
Diga por favor que estoy enterado
Que me haga una espera
Que no le he dado a mi novia ni un beso de despedida
Que no he repartido mi mano con las de la familia
Ni he desempolvado los libros
Ni he silvado la canción preferida
Ni me he reconciliado con los enemigos
(Digale que no he probado el suicidio,
Ni he visto libre a mi gente)
 Dígale, si quiere, que vuelva mañana
Que no es que le tema pero, ni siquiera…
Dígale, si quiere, que vuelva mañana
 Que no es que le tema pero, ni siquiera…
Dígale, si quiere, que vuelva mañana
Que no es que le tema pero, ni siquiera…
Dígale, si quiere, que vuelva mañana
Que no es que le tema pero, ni siquiera…
He empezado a andar el camino.

 If Death If death comes and asks for me
Do me a favor
And tell it to come back tomorrow
Because my debts haven’t been canceled
Nor have I finished a poem
Nor have I arranged my clothes for the trip
Nor have I delivered a package
Nor have I locked my drawers
 Nor have I told my friends what I have to tell them
Nor have I felt the scent of an unborn rose
Nor have I dug up my roots
Nor have I written an overdue letter
Because I haven’t even washed my hands
Nor have I met a son
Nor have I walked through unknown countries
 Nor do I know the sea’s seven sails (Nor the sailor’s song) If death should come
Tell it please that I’m aware
That it has to wait
 Because haven’t kissed my girlfriend goodbye
 Because I haven’t shaken hands with my family
Nor have I blew the dust off my books
Nor have I whistled my favorite song
Nor have I reconciled with my enemies (Tell it I haven’t tried suicide,
Nor have I seen my people free)
 Tell it, if you want, to come back tomorrow
 Because it’s not that I’m afraid, but I haven’t even…
Tell it, if you want, to come back tomorrow
 Because it’s not that I’m afraid, but I haven’t even…
Tell it, if you want, to come back tomorrow
Because it’s not that I’m afraid, but I haven’t even…
 Tell it, if you want, to come back tomorrow
Because it’s not that I’m afraid, but I haven’t even…
 Started to walk my path.

 

Diamanda Galás – In Despair

Diamanda Galás singing a poem written by Konstantinos P. Kavafis

Εν απογνώσει

Τον έχασ’ εντελώς. Και τώρα πια ζητεί
στα χείλη καθενός καινούριου εραστή
τα χείλη τα δικά του· στην ένωσι με κάθε
καινούριον εραστή ζητεί να πλανηθεί
πως είναι ο ίδιος νέος, πως δίδεται σ’ εκείνον.

Τον έχασ’ εντελώς, σαν να μη υπήρχε καν.
Γιατί ήθελε —είπ’ εκείνος— ήθελε να σωθεί
απ’ την στιγματισμένη, την νοσηρά ηδονή·
απ’ την στιγματισμένη, του αίσχους ηδονή.
Ήταν καιρός ακόμη— ως είπε— να σωθεί.

Τον έχασ’ εντελώς, σαν να μη υπήρχε καν.
Aπό την φαντασίαν, από τες παραισθήσεις
στα χείλη άλλων νέων τα χείλη του ζητεί·
γυρεύει να αισθανθεί ξανά τον έρωτά του.

translation of the poem:

In Despair

He lost him completely. And he now tries to find
his lips in the lips of each new lover,
he tries in the union with each new lover
to convince himself that it’s the same young man,
that it’s to him he gives himself.

He lost him completely, as though he never existed.
He wanted, his lover said, to save himself
from the tainted, unhealthy form of sexual pleasure,
the tainted, shameful form of sexual pleasure.
There was still time, he said, to save himself.

He lost him completely, as though he never existed.
Through fantasy, through hallucination,
he tries to find his lips in the lips of other young men,
he longs to feel his kind of love once more.